oh happy day!

1st Nov 2009

oh happy day!!!!

                                             
i was planning to go for my inspiring walk in the Common this morning, but the day came up rainy and windy. i don't mind the rain, i can happily walk through it, the wind is a little problematic. moreover, it was pouring early in the morning, it was not really good to walk in that rain. so, i decided to stay home instead.

i have not even gone to avenue campus yet. i might go later on, but i doubt it. well, i stay home but that doesn't mean i have the whole day free to watch movies and have fun. actually, i am super busy with different materials to read for my research and also materials from the classes i am teaching now. the good thing about staying home is that here i listen to my soft jazz at itunes, from apple. right now listening to Carmen Mcrae. sooo good.

people complain about the weather, but i, as weird as it may seem, do love the rain, and the chilly days. this fall / winter has been the opposite of what it was like last year. i do feel now more comfortable with the place around me, with the weather, and loads of other things. my comfort about the weather can be observed in the fact that i no longer need so many covers to go outside as i feel stronger to face the cold, which, let's be honest, has not arrived yet. :-) 

anyway, i thought about this post to talk of words, words, loads of them, and the absence of them when i need them most. my life is pretty much around words. i have this impression that the words. . . that free me from anguish all the time, are also what get me stuck many times, particularly concerning my research right now. when i have no idea on where to start from to write about my research, for example, i feel so stuck. and then again, it should the words the healing medicine. the words. . . the words of the wind, of the forest, of the Common. yesterday, while i was walking in the Common, i had this insight on how to organize the information i had read so far about Dick Allwright. it is always something which is in the very inside of me that will come to my aid and help me move on. with the words the blur fades away, slowly.

it is such a beautiful day. i have the heater on, contrasting with the outside chill. i have to keep my window open, not only for some fresh air but also to hear the wind blowing through the leaves of the trees. it feels great to be entering the coldest seasons of the year wearing shorts, a t-shirt, no socks, and barefoot in the room whenever i want to.

ain't life cool?

love, and good jazz :-)

Kalina Morena

update 4.06pm

i've just got back from an energizing walk in the park with Wei. lots of people with dogs  and children were there enjoying the day as well. we walk for 45 minutes. the birds were there, some sleeping, some singing for me. taking the walk makes me feel good and that i've done what i am supposed to :-)