lava roupa todo dia, que alegria

19 june 2010

today i decided to stay home and put some order here after the many days i've been busy and with no chance whatsoever to tidy up the place. my plans now are to have a new start around here, getting rid of old papers and opening up spaces for my next steps in my research. i always start off by organizing the place. it does give me a better perspective in mind and i can definetely work better from there. actually, i believe the disposition of my belongings in my room tell a lot about my mind, i mean, of how much messed up or at peace it is.

for this reason, first thing in the morning i made myself a nice and fresh cup of coffee and had it with bread and butter. oh, and tasteless weight watchers cheese. it's simple stuff but i like it very much. i never have bread for breakfast during the week. with no exception for breakfast on weekdays i have cereal with milk, and yogurt if i have it, and fruits, if i have any. cereal with green tea. this is the perfect meal for good digestion throughout the day for me.

next, i did big time laundry, two loads, plus ten 'delicate' pieces that i hand washed right here in the room and hanged in the curtain mill. hehehe they look gorgeous there, don't they? washing up clothes and putting them away is always a powerful thing to make to me feel i am getting somewhere.

cansadinha da silva

9 june 2010

nota: partes de um email enviado a uma amiga ha uma hora mais ou menos.

ontem conversei com o wxxxx ate umas 8 da noite. caminhei la de volta pro highfield e conversamos no escritorio dele. fui embora pensando em fazer mais coisas. . . . . . bla bla bla. . . . . . to muito mas muito cansada mesmo, fisicamente. hoje muito cedo ja vim aqui no avenue, deixei umas coisas, caminhei pro highfield e trabalhei com outro prof, de listening and speaking, ajudando ele a avaliar as apresentacoes dos alunos dele.

engracado que nao to nem reclamando, entende? mas to me sentindo tomada, completamente tomada de coisas pra fazer e sem conseguir fazer tudo que quero por conta da minha exaustao no final do dia. chego em casa e quero comer uma comida boa ou uma salada bem sadia e preciso ir comprar ingredientes porque acabou tudo que eh vegetal fresco. e frutas tambem me faltam e sinto falta disso. tenho feito umas saladas que eu adoro ultimamente.

terminei de tabalhar com o Ted Way e fui no cabeleiriro ali na unishop pra marcar pra cortar o cabelo e me sentir melhor. ta marcado pra hoje 5.15 da tarde. sim, vou voltar la de novo hoje. ainda bem que o caminho eh lindo e me faz muito bem, mas to cansada, muito cansada. eu queria tanto agora me deitar e dormir por umas 12 horas seguidas, ou so fechar os olhos e escutar musica, ou ver filmes, ou ver o mar. tenho que cortar o cabelo hoje pra ver se ainda hoje mesmo passo uma tinta nele, pra 'disfarcar' o tempo. isso sempre faz eu me sentir melhor, e sera duas coisas a menos na preparacao para a apresentacao, a parte da 'aparencia'. assim me sinto livre pra me concentrar em outras coisas. e se Deus quiser nao vai tomar muito tempo.

o trabalho com o Ted, claro, foi excelente, divertido, relaxado e diferente. mas eh trabalho e exige concentracao. a gente avalia o aluno mas eh tambem avaliada nessas horas, naturalmente. o Ted ficou feliz e amanha nos vemos de novo para as outras apresentacoes do grupo dele. amanha vai ser de tarde, tambem no highfield. eu tenho um pe caminhador e a esse respeito sinto felicidade e movimento na minha vida.

e caminhei de volta pro avenue. to aqui, embriagada de cansaco, anestesiada, na cadeira. daqui a pouco, 1 da tarde, tenho que ir a uma apresentacao de um colega libio que chegou faz pouco tempo da coleta de dados e pesquisa o mesmo tema que eu .

amanha cedo tenho encontro com 'advisor' - Deus eh mais e ela nao vai dizer muita coisa diferente dessa vez, o que mais me angustia que ajuda. ela vai me ajudar com a apresentacao da proxima semana. e de tarde tem o Ted. que horas eu posso dedicar a mim, com folga de tempo pra me concentrar? pra comprar comida sadia e cozinhar? penso em cozinhar e fico sem animo quando penso na lavacao de panela.

to muito cansada. nao tive tempo de ver nem quantas horas sao o programa la no sabado, o curso de critatividade. eu decidi que nao vou poder ir dessa vez, mas acho que voce vai adorar. eu iria sem duvida se nao estivesse precisando de cada minuto pra cuidar do meu proprio explicito servico aqui.

entao, como ta no email da chefe, eu vou pedir pra ela deixar eu entregar as notas na quarta-feira mesmo, porque na quinta nao acho que meus nervos aguentem, apesar de isso ser mexer no progama deles, e disso eles nao gostam. e acabei de receber outro email dela falando dos comentarios que temos que fazer sobre cada aluno, no sistema. eh um relatorio enorme. eu de alguma forma achei - delirei - que com o final das aulas eu estaria um pouco mais livre, mas isso eh somente depois de fechar todo esse servico, claro. moral da historia: nao posso marcar londres pro dia 18. vou ver se consigo entregar as notas no dia 16 e no 17, depois da apresentacao, comecar a fechar os relatorios de cada aluno. acho mais seguro liberar esse dia.

me sinto ocupada e cansada. nao tenho tido tempo pra coisas serias e urgentes minhas, da minha pesquisa. mas ta tudo bem, se faz sentido isso. acho que sao so dias muito lotados de servico. meu cansaco eh porque cada atividade exige um nivel de concentracao enorme e nao sei se dou conta direito. ah, hoje eu tinha anotado o numero da sala errado. ainda bem que era no predio do direito mesmo e vi o Ted vindo do cafe e subi e encontrei a turma no segundo andar.

eu era beeem mais agil e tinha mais capacidade multi tarefa. hoje sou mais lenta e preciso de mais coisas pra me concentrar e exijo mais de mim, mas me sinto tao melhor, parece que sei mais sobre quem eu sou. sentimento bem interessante. eh uma sabedoria que me mantem no chao.

ps.: encontrei a Ros, minha orientadora, na apresentacao. ela veio ate mim e falou de novo sobre dois emails que tinha me mandado logo antes da apresentacao, quase uma da tarde, sobre uns documentos que eu precisso URGENTEMENTE concluir. ate ela usou maiusculas pra me alertar. vai dar tudo certo. bom demais quando ela nao precisava dizer duas vezes a mesma coisa. ela agora falou pela terceira ou quarta vez, eu acho. eu ja comecei tudo, mas to lenta na finalizacao. eu tenho que calcular o tempo que preciso pensando no meu modus operandi assaz artesanal, sempre. eu gosto de cumprir datas e concluir projetos, tudo bacana.

the birds by the window

7 june 2010

listen to the birds in the video. i took these photos and made a short video of the car park from my window at st. margaret's house. it was a little chilly and wet because it had rained during the day. there is also music from my itunes adore jazz radio station, playing at low volume, but i opted for the sounds of the birds. i love to listen to the birds.

film: “Brasileirinho: grandes encontros do choro”

5 june 2010

Brasileirinho - Grandes Encontros do Choro (2005)

Director: Mika Kaurismäki
Writers: Marco Forster & Mika Kaurismäki
Release Date: 23 March 2007 (UK)

Cast
the great brazilian musicians and singers: Teresa Cristina, Paulinho da Viola, Ademilde Fonseca, Zezé Gonzaga, Guinga, Paulo Moura, Luciano Rabelo, Elza Soares, Marcos Suzano, Trio Madeira Brasil, Yamandu

Runtime: France: 90 min
Country: Brazil / Finland  / Switzerland
Language: Portuguese
Filming Locations: Brazil
Company: Marianna Films
Source for info above: imdb

To finish up well a difficult day I decided to stay home and watch a movie. It is the documentary “Brasileirinho: grandes encontros do choro” . the great film directed by Mika Kaurismäki is a pearl among the good documentaries about Brazil and about music. It tells of the beginning of choro, and shows some big names telling stories. It is nice to see the new generations wanting to study and play choro. it wa so nice to listen to the stories and to the fantastic sounds of the music of my Brazil. it might be obvious, but especiallythat day it was super nice to watch the film. if i am not mistaken they did not talk about chiquinha gonzaga, which was a bad surprise to me.

anyway, i was impressed by the young musicians learning from the older generations and much into the spirit of the music. i love Yamandu. i would love to be able to play a musical instrument, preferably the guitar. wish i could sing, too.
*sigh*

ready for the inspection

3 june 2010

today i will have a guest who's staying until saturday with me. karla is a student from the university of leeds and will come to the uni of southampton for her MA in applied linguistics. she already has the acceptance letter from the department and is coming now to visit the city and the uni premises and services.

well, last night, while i was vacuuming the room and 'hiding' stuff and putting some things away to both open space and to look a bit more organized i laughed thinking i was doing that in the same way i have done the cleaning up for the room inspection we have in the halls during school year. it was funny. i mean, i do clean up and organizer my room and i do like it, but not just now. in the end the room looks neat.

i'll pick karla up from the coach station at 6pm. she's traveling through london, where she changes buses. a looong trip, but much cheaper by coach than by plane or train.

film: 'kitaj'

30 may 2010

Kitaj

Last night I watched a documentary about the life of R. B. Kitaj . He was a Jewish painter who lived in the US and in Europe for many years. The documentary is mainly based on his own account of his life. It was very interesting to hear him telling about his ideas of turning a story from the thing he saw or stories people told him into a painting. He was an influential painter, born in 1932 in Cleveland, Ohio. He died in Los Angeles 2007. Kitaj pointed out that a painting should be used for both intellectual and sensual communication. lots of nudity in his paintings.

I watched it at home, by myself. It felt nice to be under the sheets in the cold night. It felt like being somewhere on a lazy holiday. Thanks a lot for lending me the film, Diana. I loved it.

le plat du jour

28 may 2010

le plat du jour: veggie salad with prawns

le plat: i cut all the raw veggies – stuffed zucchini, green olives, cherry tomatoes, yellow pepper, and chinese leaf - together to a big plate and added the steamed asparagus and the prawns, which had been cooked in butter and garlic, salt and chilly.

i prepared the sauce the simplest way, just mixing up two small spoons of fat free natural yogurt, one of cottage cheese, balsamic vinegar and basil infused olive oil, and a pinch of salt and chilly. The sauce I added to my plate only.

le dessert: weight watchers caramel ice cream

la boisson: english tea

the salad was very good and juicy. it was a banquet for me and didn’t come from any specific recipe. I just went by portswood on my way home from uni, entered three different shops buying things i like, literally doing something to make me happy. this is perfect for these days when there have been moments i wished i was elsewhere. finished with my banquet i watched godard’s film ‘band a part’.

le plat du jour

25 may 2010

i stayed home all day today.

had planned to go to avenue. did not go.
planned to go for a walk. did not go.
planned to go the supermarket. did not go.

at least i have done some reading. i got today in the mail a book i bought just a few days ago: freire's 'letters to cristina', which was a friend's suggestion. i already love the book. i read only the first letter so far, but have checked out the whole book.

i also cooked, which is important. i stir fried these dried chinese mushrooms which i had been soaking for two days. let it simmer for a while, added chilly, petit pois, and the cooked penne to it. steamed broccoli and voila! last and least, these british hamburgers that smell funny and taste nothing special. i prepared them in the oven. won't buy them again. to drink i made this soothing orange, mango, and cinnamon tea.

i still have pasta for two other meals. only need to think of some more veggies. this is my cooking philosophy: every time i step into the kitchen to cook it has to be food enough for at least two meals.

another chilly day

8 may 2010

 i had plans to go to the library today, to be there and just cross the road for the theatre later on. well, i also needed to try some tidying up in the area here. i started off the day with for a nice one-hour gold run at the common while i was doing laundry; when i put the clothes in the dryer i left it here because to dry the time can be longer: 75 minutes. i love the days here, with new colours and the sounds of the birds, but it was very very cold. at first i thought of trying out to go very lightly dressed up, with one or two covers only. when i got there i was happy i was properly dressed to remain at the park for the time i wanted. chilly chilly common park.

back inside the house i organized the room, a little, i mean. this is always important to me, as it makes me see better the things around here and help me move on on on on, i.e., do the different, new things i have to do. i am happy i changed and washed all my bed sheets and got back a duvet i had already put away, thinking warm spring was on the way. spring yes, but not warm yet. i now sleep on winter pyjamas and have a bed sheet to cover me, plus two duvets. yes, they switched off the heater in the uni halls. i emailed them complaining about it this week. below is my contact with them. there is hope if next week it is still too cold to bear. i'll get ready to go to the theatre now.

-----Original Message-----

From: Lima K.S.D.

Sent: 06 May 2010 13:16

To: Rxxxx; Sxxx

Subject: heater

Hello,

I live in st margaret's. I understand spring is in the air, but still very and constantly cold. Could we please the heater switched back even if only for a few hours per day? It is particularly cold in the morning and in the night.

Thanks a lot,

Kalina

__

Hi,

Many thanks for your query about the heating. I'm afraid that the heating goes off this time of year in our halls every year. It was turned off when the weather was warmer, and I do appreciate that now it has got colder again. However, the weather forecast is set to improve at the start of next week so I'm sorry but the heating will not be turned on again. The heating in other halls is off at the moment or being turned off over the weekend so the situation is the same across other sites. However, if you feel next week that you are still cold, please let us know and we can review the situation.

Many thanks

Txxx Kxxxxx

Assistant Hall Manager

the toilet bulb

12 nov 2009

got home today to find this cute little note andy posted in the toilet door to let us know the bulb is gone but should still be repaired today. sweety!!! people may complain but i enjoyed having the shower in the dark for a change. it is not even too dark.