O capítulo 6

6 july 2013

Semana passada, depois de uma longuíssima jornada, mandei meu rascunho completo do capítulo 6 para apreciação da minha orientadora. Ela vai ler o material e me mandar de volta com comentários para eu fazer - é sempre assim - ainda mais alguns acertos, para chegar à versão final. O capítulo 6 é composto de:

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Some a isso muitos rascunhos impressos e trabalhos às vezes no texto todo até que, finalmente, tomei a boa decisão de trabalhar por sessão. Isso resultou em um trabalho bem melhor, e me libertei da angústia do texto ser tratado por inteiro de uma vez só. Por esse número de páginas você imagina que é um texto longo, do tamanho ou talvez maior que algumas monografias de pós. Um capítulo apenas.

Agora estou trabalhando no capítulo 7, que traz a segunda parte da minha análise de dados. Tenho trabalhado tanto, seis dias por semana, de segunda a sexta na universidade, e algumas horas em casa aos sábados. Quando o trabalho rende bem fico feliz e tranquila para fazer alguma coisa legal no sábado de noite e no domingo todo. Engraçado como às vezes passo muitas horas no escritório e ao final do dia não fiz muito; mas em casa, decidindo trabalhar por três horas apenas, sento, junto o material, e faço direto um bom trabalho, que me liberta para ir ser feliz ali e acolá e aqui. Adoro esse equilibrio entre obrigação e prazer.

Ontem saí do escritório às 7 da noite. Fui a última a ir embora, e o campus estava quase vazio naquela hora que é praticamente fim de semana. Apesar do silêncio, sempre encontro alguém quando vou na cozinha pegar água, para beber ou para chá ou café. A caminho de casa passei no supermercado e comprei massa fresca para o jantar: tortellini recheado com espinafre e ricotta e um molho de tomate com mangericão. É só cozinhar a massa e esquentar o molho, e em poucos minutos tá pronto o jantar ótimo. Botei um pouco de blue cheese e parmesão por cima do tortellini.

E hoje decidi ficar em casa, trabalhar de casa, mudando meu plano inicial de ir pra universidade, porque tô precisando de mudança e descanso. Trouxe meu laptop pra sala de tv e tô trabalhando um pouco e vendo tv. Tão bom. Ontem mesmo lavei roupa, que passou a noite na máquina de lavar e só foi extendida hoje de manhã. Tenho um outro tanto de coisas para fazer em casa também. Talvez mais tarde eu passe roupa. Talvez. Vamos ver o que o dia me inspira. O sol brilha lindo lá fora.  

Gosto muito de uma máxima que minha professora de italiano me ensinou, porque ela é pertinente na vida, quase o tempo todo: “prima il dovere, dopo il piacere”.          

le plat du jour: nigerian beans

3 may 2012

photo taken from my mobile phone

it was 8 degrees outside this morning. two days ago they said on the bbc it has been the wettest drought in many years in uk. the days have been wet, windy, and cold. i thought it would be a good call for me to stay in my flat and work from home. it turned out that it was almost noon and i was still in my pajamas. so cozy!!!

i did some of the packing i have to do around here, watched the news, and cooked myself good, fresh, food:
cod and parsley fishcake with nigerian baked beans [a delicious present from my nigerian friend okon], and jasmine rice. it all tasted really good. i still have leftovers for two more meals.

it is 7.35pm now and it feels cold inside here. it's 8.5C degrees outside. am happy i decided to stay in today. only thing is i need to get more things done.

U2B: civic centre - home

31 mar 2011

note: i've already written a little bit about things that happen in a bus, but from now on i will write about specific bus trips i take, or underground or whatever, i mean, about what i see here while using public transportation. this idea of dealing with the topic in this 'organized' way was inspired by karen's kafka na praia. i love her posts about her bus trips.

today i walked to city to collect my new pair of glasses and took the bus back home. for lunch at supreme, had the usual won ton noodle soup and a portion of dumplings. it was good but i’ll buy myself some dumplings from the chinese supermarket, for the sake of saving up some money and eating more dumplings.

on my way home, about 2pm, i saw the bus from inside Matalan, and i ran not to miss it. the bus driver was, as many times they are, smiley and polite. because I had to stay a while in the bus before it actually left (if only I had known I wouldn’t have run) i decided to find myself a seat this time. for most of the trips I just stand in the bus, cause it is not a long one. i live in the uni halls; so, I am exempted from paying for the bus fee. all i need to do is to swipe my student card in the bus card reader. handy, huh!

looking around me i spot two passengers having their (official) meal. Lunch here is only a sandwich for many people, especially for the English. this one guy, accompanied by girl is talking to her and eating at the same time, using the same hand he might have just used to access the bus and maybe to get money to pay for the bus. I look and see this girl eating little pieces of something from a supermarket bag. I wonder how hygienic this is. Neither the guy nor the girl looks at the food. Why do I find it strange? Do we look at the food as we eat it? I think I do sometimes, but maybe not always, especially when I am entertained with any other activity, but my food and i are always clean. that’s for sure.

right behind me there is a young guy who talks loudly with this friend of his who is now in the bus in a language I cannot understand or identify. it sounds eastern european. a variety of languages is a constant in the bus.

le plat du jour: pasta with pesto sauce

16 mar 2011

this dish of pasta with pesto sauce was very very good. this time i used fusili and penne, left overs of each that i still had in my cupboard. added some seastick and some basil to it. simple, quick, and delicious.

le plat du jour: noodle soup

23 feb 2011

i finally decided to cook myself something fresh tonight. after spending the whole day at home and having had ready made food for lunch i felt i could try out fresh food. for this chinese noodle soup i stirred fried shallots and garlic in basil infused olive oil. added vine tomatoes, a pinch of chilly, mustard, a veggetable cube and hot water. then i added the chinese noodle to the pan. when it was nearly ready i broke two egges into the soup. it tasted nice and i think i truly deserved the treat. for dessert i had two clementines and also drank a cup of tea.

i am still ill, with this allergy that is lingering on and on. i felt very very tired all day and once again i slept many hours during the day. hope to feel better soon.

le plat du jour

26 june 2010

le plat: bluecheese, chinese noodles with seastick and scrambled eggs, palm hearts, plus other ingredients:

i put ginger, garlic, butter, salt, chilly and mixed it all together with the seasticks in pan with hot butter. the smell was irresistible. i added the cooked noodles with a few spoons of the water in which i had cooked the noodles and then the bluecheese. yummy!!!

in a separate pan i prepared the eggs and also sliced the palm hearts. two banquets in a row i had this week. and there is leftover for another one or even two meals.

l'assiete: grapes.

la boisson: tea. cheers!

le plat du jour: feeding body & soul

25 june 2010

today I still felt a little lost with the crumb of freedom I have now from the many recent responsibilities. I came to the office today wearing the official Brazilian shirt and went to watch the second half of the match Brazil vs Portugal at the Stag’s head. Not much emotion, it was a draw, but we’re safe, that should make up for a reason for celebration, I think. on my way back home i stopped Somerfield, a local supermarket, and this guy started talking football with me. he wanted a chat but at present i don't have enough information to carry out a proper conversation, i'm afraid, but we still had a nice chat.

le plat: Then I came home, hungry and thinking I do need to cook up some of the food I have in the house. i just put two veggie burgers with sliced mushrooms in a tray, sprinked salt, chilly and olive oil on them, and put it in the oven to bake for about 20 minutes. the burgers were frozen. the mushrooms look dark, but the 'plat' tasted fantastic. when i was making the food one of my flatmates said it smelled really good. i added seasticks to the plate and voila! it was surprisingly different and turned out better than i expected, considering my lack of planning for the cooking and my natural inability to cook good food.

l'assiete: dark lindt chocolat

la boisson: english tea. i had a banquet today. really loved the different food, with no carbo this time. i only ate one of the great veggie burgers, saved the other one for another meal.

other than finding time to cook some, i started to read a good yesterday, as i feel the need to feed my soul with other words, other images, freer and maybe more poetic. please don't get me wrong, i love my readings, really do, but want to vary a bit. doing the fun reading makes me feel like someone who can afford a luxrious hobby. ok, so yesterday i started reading 'time was soft there', from Jeremy Mercer. he worked as a jounalist who specialized in crimes in Canada. in the book he tells of his experience of living in the Shakespeare and company bookstore in Paris. the book is very interesting and Jeremy a great writer. i actually contacted him the other day through email and he replied to me. Everytime i speak with someone famous i remember my cousin Silvana saying i never lose the habit of approaching famous people. why is that? maybe a symptom. i am, with the good food and the good book feeding body & soul :-) cheers!

le plat du jour

19 june 2010

le plat: steamed asparagus, seastick and stuffed cabbage. i seasoned this veggie salad with olive oil and chilly. it tasted good. plus rice and meat the burger i inherited from mat before she left.

le gateau: lindt dark chocolate

la boisson: english tea.

note: i always have the dessert together with the tea. my lunch today was very delicious. i was surprised myself. it had been a long while since i last cooked because i've basically been busy and eating on campus every day. i now have veggetables that are going old and will probably have to go to the bin soon. hehehe i also steamed broccoli but forgot to eat them with the meal. oh my! to feed the soul, well, good jazz all day long.

lava roupa todo dia, que alegria

19 june 2010

today i decided to stay home and put some order here after the many days i've been busy and with no chance whatsoever to tidy up the place. my plans now are to have a new start around here, getting rid of old papers and opening up spaces for my next steps in my research. i always start off by organizing the place. it does give me a better perspective in mind and i can definetely work better from there. actually, i believe the disposition of my belongings in my room tell a lot about my mind, i mean, of how much messed up or at peace it is.

for this reason, first thing in the morning i made myself a nice and fresh cup of coffee and had it with bread and butter. oh, and tasteless weight watchers cheese. it's simple stuff but i like it very much. i never have bread for breakfast during the week. with no exception for breakfast on weekdays i have cereal with milk, and yogurt if i have it, and fruits, if i have any. cereal with green tea. this is the perfect meal for good digestion throughout the day for me.

next, i did big time laundry, two loads, plus ten 'delicate' pieces that i hand washed right here in the room and hanged in the curtain mill. hehehe they look gorgeous there, don't they? washing up clothes and putting them away is always a powerful thing to make to me feel i am getting somewhere.

the birds by the window

7 june 2010

listen to the birds in the video. i took these photos and made a short video of the car park from my window at st. margaret's house. it was a little chilly and wet because it had rained during the day. there is also music from my itunes adore jazz radio station, playing at low volume, but i opted for the sounds of the birds. i love to listen to the birds.

film: 'kitaj'

30 may 2010

Kitaj

Last night I watched a documentary about the life of R. B. Kitaj . He was a Jewish painter who lived in the US and in Europe for many years. The documentary is mainly based on his own account of his life. It was very interesting to hear him telling about his ideas of turning a story from the thing he saw or stories people told him into a painting. He was an influential painter, born in 1932 in Cleveland, Ohio. He died in Los Angeles 2007. Kitaj pointed out that a painting should be used for both intellectual and sensual communication. lots of nudity in his paintings.

I watched it at home, by myself. It felt nice to be under the sheets in the cold night. It felt like being somewhere on a lazy holiday. Thanks a lot for lending me the film, Diana. I loved it.

film: 'bande a part'

30 may 2010

‘bande à part’

released as ‘band of outsiders’

Production year: 1964
Country: France
Runtime: 97 mins
Director: Jean-Luc Godard
Writer: based on Dolores Hitchens’s novel “Fools’ Gold”, written by Godard
Cast: Anna Karina, Sami Frey, Claude Brasseur, Daniele Girard, Louisa Colpeyn
Music: Michel Legrand

Last night I watched the film ‘band à part’. As far as I can remember it was my first nouvelle vague film. I like it very much. It is about this girl (Odile), who meets two guys (Arthur and Franz) at their english class. Both guys become interested in Odile, and she is more interested in Arthur. They go the cafes, dance, and when Odile realizes it is too late and she is involved with the plan of robbing the money Mr. Stolz keeps at home, the home where Odile lives with her aunt Victoria. From there problems arise.

I love the film, the scenes in Paris, the black and white effects, the whole natural atmosphere. According to one of the people who worked in the production of the film, in an interview in the extras, Godard said he didn’t do films, he did cinema. i read i think on wikipedia that godard said 'bande a part' is an 'alice in wonderland' meeting Kafka. LOL. ironic and so true. perfect definition.

i watched the film alone, at home. nice and cozy in the cold night.
Thanks a lot for lending me the film, Diana.

le plat du jour

28 may 2010

le plat du jour: veggie salad with prawns

le plat: i cut all the raw veggies – stuffed zucchini, green olives, cherry tomatoes, yellow pepper, and chinese leaf - together to a big plate and added the steamed asparagus and the prawns, which had been cooked in butter and garlic, salt and chilly.

i prepared the sauce the simplest way, just mixing up two small spoons of fat free natural yogurt, one of cottage cheese, balsamic vinegar and basil infused olive oil, and a pinch of salt and chilly. The sauce I added to my plate only.

le dessert: weight watchers caramel ice cream

la boisson: english tea

the salad was very good and juicy. it was a banquet for me and didn’t come from any specific recipe. I just went by portswood on my way home from uni, entered three different shops buying things i like, literally doing something to make me happy. this is perfect for these days when there have been moments i wished i was elsewhere. finished with my banquet i watched godard’s film ‘band a part’.

le plat du jour

25 may 2010

i stayed home all day today.

had planned to go to avenue. did not go.
planned to go for a walk. did not go.
planned to go the supermarket. did not go.

at least i have done some reading. i got today in the mail a book i bought just a few days ago: freire's 'letters to cristina', which was a friend's suggestion. i already love the book. i read only the first letter so far, but have checked out the whole book.

i also cooked, which is important. i stir fried these dried chinese mushrooms which i had been soaking for two days. let it simmer for a while, added chilly, petit pois, and the cooked penne to it. steamed broccoli and voila! last and least, these british hamburgers that smell funny and taste nothing special. i prepared them in the oven. won't buy them again. to drink i made this soothing orange, mango, and cinnamon tea.

i still have pasta for two other meals. only need to think of some more veggies. this is my cooking philosophy: every time i step into the kitchen to cook it has to be food enough for at least two meals.

another chilly day

8 may 2010

 i had plans to go to the library today, to be there and just cross the road for the theatre later on. well, i also needed to try some tidying up in the area here. i started off the day with for a nice one-hour gold run at the common while i was doing laundry; when i put the clothes in the dryer i left it here because to dry the time can be longer: 75 minutes. i love the days here, with new colours and the sounds of the birds, but it was very very cold. at first i thought of trying out to go very lightly dressed up, with one or two covers only. when i got there i was happy i was properly dressed to remain at the park for the time i wanted. chilly chilly common park.

back inside the house i organized the room, a little, i mean. this is always important to me, as it makes me see better the things around here and help me move on on on on, i.e., do the different, new things i have to do. i am happy i changed and washed all my bed sheets and got back a duvet i had already put away, thinking warm spring was on the way. spring yes, but not warm yet. i now sleep on winter pyjamas and have a bed sheet to cover me, plus two duvets. yes, they switched off the heater in the uni halls. i emailed them complaining about it this week. below is my contact with them. there is hope if next week it is still too cold to bear. i'll get ready to go to the theatre now.

-----Original Message-----

From: Lima K.S.D.

Sent: 06 May 2010 13:16

To: Rxxxx; Sxxx

Subject: heater

Hello,

I live in st margaret's. I understand spring is in the air, but still very and constantly cold. Could we please the heater switched back even if only for a few hours per day? It is particularly cold in the morning and in the night.

Thanks a lot,

Kalina

__

Hi,

Many thanks for your query about the heating. I'm afraid that the heating goes off this time of year in our halls every year. It was turned off when the weather was warmer, and I do appreciate that now it has got colder again. However, the weather forecast is set to improve at the start of next week so I'm sorry but the heating will not be turned on again. The heating in other halls is off at the moment or being turned off over the weekend so the situation is the same across other sites. However, if you feel next week that you are still cold, please let us know and we can review the situation.

Many thanks

Txxx Kxxxxx

Assistant Hall Manager

meu brasil brasileiro

6 dec 2009

8.28 in the morning now. i am finishing up with packing before i catch the coach to go to london healthrow airport terminal 4 to catch my tam flight to sao paulo to then catch another flight to fortaleza to finally be in another tam flight to teresina - home at last!

i don't even really know what i'm feeling right now. since i finished teaching on friday i've been sort of entering in a new 'layer' of existence, as it is my plan to take things easy on me from now on. the nuffield theater with diana was an excellent starting point for all this. saturday and today i still feel very much occupied with lots of administrative things to do, about both the trip and my research. however, i do want new life, new mode, new energy in the very inside of me.

until almost 2o'clock in the morning of this very sunday 6 december i was sending documents to people here and in brasil concerning this data collection / the research, which is work that requires full concentration. still, i want to see and feel it all pretty much under new perspectives from now on: lighter, more joyful, and fulfilling.

now i have to finish up packing. at times i wonder if i have forgotten something. i'm afraid i have )-: but let's hope it is just my ordinary worry, and that it should not be confirmed as such.

Me aguarde, meu Brasil lindo e colorido e caloroso e alegre e de amor e de abracos e beijnhos e carinhos sem ter fim. . . chega de saudade!!! (obrigada Joao Gilberto)

Kalina Morena

oh happy day!

1st Nov 2009

oh happy day!!!!

                                             
i was planning to go for my inspiring walk in the Common this morning, but the day came up rainy and windy. i don't mind the rain, i can happily walk through it, the wind is a little problematic. moreover, it was pouring early in the morning, it was not really good to walk in that rain. so, i decided to stay home instead.

i have not even gone to avenue campus yet. i might go later on, but i doubt it. well, i stay home but that doesn't mean i have the whole day free to watch movies and have fun. actually, i am super busy with different materials to read for my research and also materials from the classes i am teaching now. the good thing about staying home is that here i listen to my soft jazz at itunes, from apple. right now listening to Carmen Mcrae. sooo good.